Dear Ethan, on your wedding day...

OMG will somebody please freeze time! Just a few minutes ago, during dinner, Maddy, Ethan and I were just chatting. I don't remember how we got on the topic, but we started talking about growing up. Here's how the conversation went:

Mom: "When you grow up will you and Ethan live close to each other?"
Maddy: "Yes, I will buy a house near where your house is. Will you still live here?"
Mom: "Well, maybe not in this exact house, but maybe in the next house we buy."
Maddy: "I will see where you live and buy the house right next door. Or if that one isn't for sale, I will buy a different one close by."
Mom: "What about you Ethan? Will you live close by? Then your kids, the cousins, could play with each other."
Ethan: "I will live with Jeh-Jeh."
Maddy: "No Ethan, you can't because I will find someone to marry and live with him."

At this point, I got up and did a few dishes. As I turned back Ethan asked me in a bit of a shaky voice:

Ethan: "Mama, when you marry, you come back?" (I think he was asking if when you marry someone, do you get to come back and live at home.)
Mom: "Well, when I married Papa, I lived with him."
Ethan: "Mama, when you marry, you come back?" in an even shakier voice. Then he burst into huge tears!!

Ugh, it was all I could to keep myself from breaking down too. I love you sooooo much Ethan. I'm quite sure that on your wedding day, the tears will be from me and not the other way round.

For now, I'll hold onto these days for as long as I can.